being here in forever
I thought yesterday as I rode my bike to library and was greeted by a nose full of hot pink roses, this is what forever feels like. It is July and there are roses. It is warm air on my skin. The whir of the bicycle needing small adjustment.
And then it all spooled out…the way when you buy fabric they unfold bolt after bolt. It feels like it might never end.
And just as quickly it was gone. I was making lists of things, all the things, that have to happen. I was calculating between them knowing that the day didn’t hold enough hours and tomorrow wouldn’t either. I would move like a hummingbird between things
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And then I was in bed so tired. Tired in the big and small ways. Feeling the moon blasting through me like a fire hose. There was no list just a pressure in my chest. A child awake every fifteen minutes crying. A persistent mosquito. The soft spotlight of a big moon, a long foghorn, an aria maybe.
And I thought, this is what forever is like. I am tired. I am awake. There is crying. There is comforting. Here. Here. Here.
This is what we do. This is what we do together in being and breathing. This is forever. This is forever. This right now is forever.
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